the real forever

The day you learn to love as a mother...you have lived.

I saw u as a bundle of rosy pink skin
closed eyes n tightly shut lips
palms closed im to a small fist

I saw u growing up...
making ure first smile
saying ure first words
taking ure first step...

I saw u trying to do things ure self
trying to grow up
and then looking with those big innocent eyes
towards me for help wen u cudnt do it ureself
my heart goes out to u
i help u in working out things
i hold u, love u, comfort u
make u understand things

It used to give me so much pleasure
to c u needing me
leaning on me
depending on me

But i know a time will come
ven u ll have ure wings
and a whole of horizon
and u ld need to fly
all on ureself...

And i know i can not hold on to u
i just cannot keep u back
i ll just have to let u go
to let u fly out in the world

And it breaks my heart
knowing that after being dependent on me
for all these years
u ll need me no more
i just wish i cud make time stop
so i cud see u as my child always

But i know i cant
someday I'll have to let go of u
I'll have to let u b independent
no matter how much it hurts

But one thing I know will never change
I ll always love u my child
no matter what...

I ll always have my arms open
whenever u want to come back to me
or need me
I ll always be there
FOREVER