farewell love...

Rain
Dark Clouds
Fallen blossoms and pale moon
Hurried flight of birds
Arrival of lonely autumn
Time for us to part
Much have been said yet
We have not come to the end of our feelings
I leave you this poem
Read it
When the silence of the world possesses you
Or when you are fretted with disquiet
And remember
That all my thoughts have always been of you

i am me

I am d dream that ure eyes hold
delicate..yet stong enuf to give u hope
u close ure eyes n see me
u open ,em up n still i dnt elope
i am d beach where u take a stroll
where d ocean always turns up to
where u sit n watch d sunset
and find ureself a new
i am ure heart dats beats to keep u alive
dat carries thousand surges of emotions
dat beats too fast or too slow
carrying u thru d every motion
i am d word u always look for
u put ure thoughts to perfection
am d feeling of d joy in u
and d fear of rejection
am d rule of ure life
that u twist n turn n bend
honey u mst ve known by now
am no oder but ure friend

best friends forever

i look back to the past and see you there
walking step to step with me
in good and in worst, in naughty and in nice
what so ever it may be
i was the sunshine of your life
ans you were my shade from the heat
we loved and we fought like hell
but you were always there at least
i believed in me and that was your faith
i stood up for me and that was your strength
i loved myself because you loved me girl
and that too to the life's full width and length
and now that you aint around i realize
nothing has changed much since
just that d life is not worth living anymore
when the pain makes me wince
your loss has been worst than the death
and am amazed to see am still surviving in the world
am alive and breathing still
coz u loved me n taught me so girl

faith

someone asked me
what is faith?
I did not answer
not because I dint knew
but because I dint want to share
'coz it included you.
moreover he'd not have understood
no matter how much I'd have tried,
so I better thought to stay quite
and pretend that i dint knew
'coz my definition of faith
included you.
I am lonely and lost
and I dint scroll through the phone book
to see who to call
because I always knew
the only person
I 'd turn to is you
because I believe
you'd understand
whatever I say to you
and that mt love
is my faith on you.
you gave me a time
and say you'll call up,
it's late and I still don't call you
'coz I know
you've not forgotten
and that you'd call up, yes you'll do
I keep staring at d phone
even if its past hours, more than 2
and that honey
is my faith on you.
I tell you my deep dark secrets
things that I feel ashamed of
things that humiliates me
but still I tell it all to you
because I know, to hurt me
is one thing you'd never do
I place myself in your hand
to let you whatever you do
and that my dear heart
is my faith on you.
so I kept quite
why, you now know it too
I could not have shared
'coz my faith included you.

i love you..

I Cant Get You out of My head
No Matter how i try
I Still love You
Even when you make me Cry,

I want You in my Arms
I want you to be Mine
But You don't want me Now
You says it's Not our Time,

Relationships are hard Enough
But love makes them even Worse
Love Makes it hard to give Up
Love is a curse,

I Hate the fact I love You
And that i cant Get You out of My Mind
I hate that every time i think of You
My heart flutters and My eyes Cry,

I don't understand how you do this to Me
How You make Me want to Die
How I dream about you Every Night,

I 'd rather Cry and mope and Whine
Than call You to get things Straight
Because somewhere in my Heart
I know Its already Too Late ..

invisible me

I saw u today at the passage of my college,
i thought of giving u a shout
but then for a fraction of second i thought
what it would b like to c u feeling my presence???
just then u looked back and smiled
I was happy beyond all happiness
you stopped, turned around
and started walking towards me
I held my breath
waited...you came closer
but walked past me
to someone else
whose presence you acknowledged
even from a great distance
or was it my presence was negligible to you
I wish I cud know
how do u look in to my eyes yet
right beyond it
I wish I knew some way to tell you
how I feel about you
and to make you feel the same for me
but I know its only the dream
and I have to live with it
I wont say I can spend my whole lifetime with the dream
but am sure I am going to spend the best of my lifetime with it
the best of my lifetime loving you secretly..

the real forever

The day you learn to love as a mother...you have lived.

I saw u as a bundle of rosy pink skin
closed eyes n tightly shut lips
palms closed im to a small fist

I saw u growing up...
making ure first smile
saying ure first words
taking ure first step...

I saw u trying to do things ure self
trying to grow up
and then looking with those big innocent eyes
towards me for help wen u cudnt do it ureself
my heart goes out to u
i help u in working out things
i hold u, love u, comfort u
make u understand things

It used to give me so much pleasure
to c u needing me
leaning on me
depending on me

But i know a time will come
ven u ll have ure wings
and a whole of horizon
and u ld need to fly
all on ureself...

And i know i can not hold on to u
i just cannot keep u back
i ll just have to let u go
to let u fly out in the world

And it breaks my heart
knowing that after being dependent on me
for all these years
u ll need me no more
i just wish i cud make time stop
so i cud see u as my child always

But i know i cant
someday I'll have to let go of u
I'll have to let u b independent
no matter how much it hurts

But one thing I know will never change
I ll always love u my child
no matter what...

I ll always have my arms open
whenever u want to come back to me
or need me
I ll always be there
FOREVER

congregation

A congregation

That was some get together
and i mean really some get together
people with painted face floating here and there
chit chatting about everything and nothing
with utmost grace and warmth
the last time i remember seeing someone
was the time i heard them loathing...
loathing the faces they are so lovinly hugging
i am amused, or rather confused
or hell, aren't thy confused
ohh why bother, i guess this is as normal as you and me
this is a just congregation or is this just a congregation???...