Whoever said 'to love and lose is better than never have loved at all' have never really been betrayed the way she has been.
The room is dark.....doors and windows closed...curtains pulled together...it was tough to figure out what time of day it was from inside the house..door bell rings....she jerks fearfully...get all the more tightly cuddled up in the corner...her face digging harder into her arms....there is a persistent knocking on the door...with the equally persistent ring of door bell....she sits there..tight...hoping the sound dies away soon...and it does...she listened carefully for a moment and then breaks down into loud sobs*********************************************************************************
FEW DAYS AGO:
"Ishi", a male sound shouted from outside her house.
"yeah baby, am ready, be right there".
She hurriedly moved out of her house...hugged the guy...closed the door and moved out for regular Saturday hangout with Rakhtabh...the man she loved and trusted...the man who betrayed her...and with friends..she loved these Saturday hangouts after long hours of work all week long.
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"Ishi, my parents want me to get married", Raktabh sadly announced to Ishi
"We knew this was going to happen na baby"
"Yeah, but now it seems so hard"
Ishi smiled...she couldn't think of anything to say.
"Its your birthday next week", she beamed, "whats the plan".
"Hahahahaha, its my birthday and I am supposed to set the plans as well...thats not fair at all".
She smiled...she was game...she had a brilliant plan for his birthday..probably last with her and she wanted to make it special....and it did turned out special for him....and petrifying for her
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She arranged a poolside party at a very hep hotel...loads of friends invited...they had a gala time....dinner...boozing...dancing...all the laughter.
"Ishi, I want to invite a friend of mine back at home. Its been so long we haven't seen each other, and want to catch up. My place isn't good enough so can I bring him to your place?"
"Mmmm!!!! I don't know Raktabh."
"Come lemme introduce you two"
"Nilesh, this is Ishi...Ishi, Nilesh".
She greeted him with a meek hii...Nilesh had a rugged look...Kindda shady...She did not like his look.
"Raktabh I dont really like him, he sends me creeps", Ishi pulled Raktabh in a corner and spilled out her doubts
He held her face "you do trust me na love. I will be there".
She was confused
"Cummon its my last birthday with you", he made a baby face she so loved
She burst out laughing "Okay"
The mistake was made...her fate was sealed in her that one single word.
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Later that night..Raktabh was sitting with his friend while Ishi sat reading in another room...With any other regular friend she would have sat with them..but she didn't really feel confident and comfortable with this Nilesh guy.
"Ishi, baby, I am going out to get some more booze...can you accompany Nilesh untill I come back..Please"
"Do I have to?"
"Please."
"Hmmm..okay"
Raktabh went out...She went to sit with Nilesh"
"Hi Ishi, I have heard a lot about you from Raktabh...and all good things..I have been so eager to meet you"...and he kept trying to flatter her for a while...while she kept smiling embarrassingly.
"Ishi I want to sleep with you"
This came as a shock to her...it took few seconds for her to register what he said...She felt scared...her demons from past rushing back to her...she excused herself and tried to move out of room.
He held her wrist..
."atleast a kiss, please"...
"No Nilesh, lemme go"...she screamed in panic.
Nilesh held her tightly....threw her to wall...She was moving her face side to side...dodging him...But he was brutal...he cupped her face and tried to kiss...the moment she felt her hand going free..She pushed him with all her might...and ran into other room....she was scared...very scared...She locked the room...She picked up her phone... Dialed Raktabh...ran to her balcony...locked that as well..His phone rang and rang and rang endlessly...time and over again...the thud at the door of the room got stronger...the lock gave in...Nilesh walked in.
"Ishi, give it up to me..Raktabh won't come in unless I ask him to. I am going to do what I want. You either suffer or enjoy"
She grew numb...she wasn't listening...he knew..Raktabh knew...and he agreed...her love...her trust....betrayed...Tears flowed endlessly from her eyes.
The thud at the door of balcony grew louder...It won't be long before this lock gives in as well...She hought furiously....She dialled another number...her brother by faith...
"Bhai please jaldi aa", she cried on phone..."save me"
but she knew it was worthless...he stays atleast an hr and a half away from her place..suddenly the door flew open...Nilesh dragged her to room...fear...she saw raw fear...felt it all over again.
That night...in her own home...she was robbed of everything...her faith...her love..her confidence...her pride and feminity..all by one man....the man she loved...trusted.
Suddenly the door bell rang....Raktabh was home...She hated his sight...She wanted to kill him right there...Nilesh went out....Raktabh wanted to talk to her...She looked at him with sheer hatred....pushed him inside..locked him inside and ran to the rooftop..loud thunder roared...she stood there...numb...for a few minutes...it all came flashing back to her...she started weeping..her cries growing louder..and louder...and into a howl...like that of an animal in pain...grave pain...which was lost in the sound of thunder...She sat there...and cried...she was furious for letting this happen to her again..she wanted revenge...she wanted to avenge her loss..but she knew it was useless...nothing could bring back what she lost tonight...her brother by faith came...found her on roof...sitting in a corner..he touched her shoulders lightly...she cringed at his touch...pushed him away in fear and disgust..and grunted loudly.
That night she lost many things...but gained one...a scar deeper than before...a scar that wont heal...that will stay with her forever like an honest friend...and HATRED.
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